Part 1 of 3 Dear Unplanned, Unexpected C-Section Mom, I know things didn't go the way you planned. I know you worked hard to have a healthy pregnancy. I know you worked hard to set yourself up for a beautiful birth. You learned. You asked questions. You did things "right." I know that things went askew ended up with a birth you didn't anticipate. Your emotions are raw and your body is healing. You heart has some healing too... I've seen the stigma that is sometimes tossed your way... that a surgical birth is somehow less. I have seen you fight for validation of your birth and struggle with acceptance of lost plans. I've seen your bravery. Your isolation. Your pure love for your baby that was put to the test by birthing in a way that left you weak, with a road of recovery ahead while managing new motherhood. I want to tell you something today. I haven't been in your position, but I have seen you and I want to tell you that absolutely, without a doubt, that your birth mattered. It didn't matter because you got a healthy baby in exchange. While that certainly holds so much merit, it is just a piece of the puzzle. Your birth mattered because it takes bravery to undergo a major surgery for the sake of your baby. It takes bravery to swallow your birth plan and forge ahead. It takes bravery to wake up each morning, while recovering, and reach for your tiny helpless baby with a smile on your face. It takes so much bravery to say that, if you had to do a section again for the sake of your baby, you would in a heartbeat. Your birth was sacrificial and so very real. You took the path less traveled. You took a path that you didn't want to take. You gave up your vision of the perfect birth and bravely took a path that meant more pain, more courage, and more recovery. I have also seen beautiful vaginal births, but you deserve the pedestal, my friend. You deserve the praise. You likely didn't feel triumphant when your baby emerged, but scared. However, your baby's birth was valid, real, raw, and beautiful and here is why... First and foremost, birth is birth. Regardless of how your baby came into the world, you became a mother, therefore, you gave birth to your child. Period. Secondly, there is beauty in dying to self for the sake of the greater good and you did just that. I applaud you and I admire you. That is not easy. You will always carry the scar. It's your battle wound; your sign of sacrifice and commitment and love. You will always remember your story and those memories will always be inscribed in your heart. Time will pass and all types of scars can slowly heal. In the future, you may not have more children. You may decide to have repeat C-sections. You may decide to walk the path to a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean). Regardless of how many children you have and what each birth looks like, I wanted to write this for one reason, in this precise moment: I want to say thank you. Thank you for your birth and bravery. Thank you for your recovery, handled with grace as you learned to mother your new baby. Thank you for being a part of the motherhood tribe. Thank you for your deep sacrifice for your child before you ever looked into your child's eyes. Undergoing a C-section and healing from one is not easy. I respect you and I admire you. Sincerely, A doula with a dose of perspective Part 2: Dear Mom Whose Birth Wasn't Rainbows and Butterflies Coming soon: Part 3: Journey to a VBAC
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Tiffany
2/6/2016 02:45:27 pm
This was just beautiful thank you! I had 4 natural births. But my last one was a C-section. And I felt that I missed out on my last experience to birth my last child the natural way! But I now realize, I had no choice, she was breech and I knew she needed to be saved. I was kinda out of it but I still knew what was going on. I do remember her face as they took her out and wrapped her up! aNd I did say I would never do it again if she was my first she would have been my last. But your right, I would do it again to save my child! I really enjoyed reading your letter!
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 02:35:00 pm
I am so glad you enjoyed this letter. ❤️
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Ashley
8/7/2016 08:04:28 pm
My son was born via a natural vaginal birth. Then my daughter was breech, so I had to have a c-section. It's so different. If my son had been a c-section, especially with the recovery I had after my daughter, he would have been my only child. I would definitely do it over if I had to for the sake of a healthy baby. I had my tubes tied though, so we won't have more babies!
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Christa
2/7/2016 09:08:37 pm
Thank you for writing this! It helps encourage me and further my emotional healing after my unplanned csection 4 months ago. I studied, prepared, had a doula, had a detailed birth plan and went through 24 hours of back labor unmedicated. I couldn't wait for the moment he'd be born and put onto my chest and we'd cuddle and I'd cry as I met my son for the first time. His dad would cut the cord and I'd get to see the placenta (this was really important to me for some reason.)
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Susie (Baby Love Birth doula)
2/12/2016 02:39:23 pm
You fought tremendously! You deserve the biggest medal of all... Full natural labor, fully supported and educated, many hours pushing, then to also have the c-section recovery. You will take a lot from my next post about healing your heart after a traumatic or hard labor and delivery, I think... It's in the works. ;) I am sorry you had a c-section after your whole beautiful labor, but you are right, you should be so proud of your scar and the warrior you were to get that sweet baby into this world!
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Stormie
7/26/2016 07:37:07 pm
Where can I find your article on traumatic birth recovery?
Maddy
2/13/2016 11:13:38 am
My first delivery by emcs sounds very similar to yours. This letter made me cry even after a successful vbac 2 years later the memories are raw and very real. My second delivery was going a similar way but baby turned eventually and was born naturally, a very cathartic and healing experience. I will share this letter with other c-section mummies as it sums it all up perfectly. Xx
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Connie
2/8/2016 05:56:52 pm
Even after nearly 5 months I still can't quite believe how my first pregnancy ended up! 11 days overdue and 15 hours of induced labour due to menconium stained waters. I knew emergency section was the only option to bring our beautiful daughter safely into the world! After failure to progress. Try to get my head around why my body wasn't allowing it but also try to put it to the back of my mind as it was all worth it. all being well if we are blessed with a second / third maybe even fourth child I will do whatever means necessary so it definitely hasn't deterred me! Thank u x
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 02:44:54 pm
Such work you did to bring that peanut into the world! Inductions can work beautifully, and they can be hard and disappointing. There is nothing wrong with your body... I promise!!! ❤️
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Talula
2/11/2016 11:20:06 am
Thankyou, I wish i had a Doula like you to support me through my second c section six months ago. I felt like I hadn't given birth to my Daughter after her delivery, as I was passingi n and out of consiousness she was brought to the table it felt like she was 20 feet away out of sight and that was harmful. My son was brought to me first, before the table and it was joyous and right! What a difference, plus I got to see my placenta after explaining how important this was to me!
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 02:52:22 pm
I am so sorry your daughter's birth was so hard and traumatic. Give yourself lots of time to think and heal and process. My next blog post should help... It's in the works. Also, thank you so much for the first thing you wrote. It put a smile on my face.
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Stephanie
2/11/2016 01:08:26 pm
Honestly, until today I had no clue what a doula was. I follow a few mommy site's and someone shared one of your posts and I clicked your page, started reading some of your posts and came across this post and I just want to say thank you. A lot of people out there think having a c-section isn't truly giving birth and I think that's crap. I was a week late and went in for my scheduled induction. I was having contractions 2 days prior to that day but they didn't get close enough. The day I went in, my cervix was still barely open and my daughter hadn't even dropped yet. My daughter was born emergency crash c-section about an hour and a half after we got to the hospital. I was put completely under and wasn't able to see her until I was out of recovery. It was by far the scariest days of my life, but oldly I wouldn't change anything. She's a happy, healthy 3 month old and the love of my life. ❤
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felicity
2/11/2016 09:34:40 pm
i have never had the chance to have a natural birth due to having a double uterus and double cervix my babies have all be breach so i could never have a natural and i have struggled for years with not being able to at least try a natural that decision was taken out of my hands. 😐
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 03:00:06 pm
Your sections absolutely are birth and while you won't have the chance to labor and deliver vaginally, you are still growing and birthing your babies beautifully. Have you had natural/gentle sections? There are some great things they can do now (or some places do) to make a cesarean more intimate: clear or lowered drape, immediate skin to skin etc. Ask ask ask. Many hospitals are trying to accommodate mother's wishes in c-sections.
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Olivia
2/12/2016 01:00:18 am
Thank you for this article. I had an emergency c section after 3 days of pre labour and not dilating. I was tired, exhausted, hadn't slept and don't think I would have had the energy to push after enduring 24 hours on the drip from my induction. I still feel 'embarrassed' when a group of mummies are talking about their 'natural and drug free' birth and feel like I have to compensate with a reason as to why I had the c section. The road to recovery is hard, one that only c section mum's will understand.
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Susie (baby love birth doula)
2/12/2016 03:01:48 pm
This is exactly why I decided to write this. Just because you had a section shouldn't mean that you feel any less compared to a vaginal birth. Your recovery is intense too and is to be admired!
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Jenny
2/12/2016 02:55:45 am
Thank you for this post. My first child was born via emergency c-section after things went wrong during labour. I had placental abruption and cord compression so they moved so quickly to save my life and that of my little precious boy, who is now 5.5yrs and very healthy. I had so much trouble coming to terms with the c-section and what could of been if i hadn't got to the hospital when i did. My second was two yrs later and i had a VBAC. Was so proud of myself that i did it, but it was another tough labour and just made before they were going to take me to theatre for another c! All c-section mammas be proud you did it, you gave birth to a healthy baby in the best way you could.
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 03:05:10 pm
Amen!!!!
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Mandy
2/12/2016 03:48:47 am
Why is it that women feel like they have missed out or failed if they didn't deliver their babies vaginally, I don't get it?
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Sara
2/13/2016 05:48:15 am
I agree - without a C section I wouldn't be able to have children due to a spinal injury. I felt privileged to be able to have children and bonded straight away. I was lucky both my births were planned and everything ran smoothly.
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Rachel
2/17/2016 09:14:43 am
It's wonderful that you don't feel robbed by your experience. I truly mean that! Some women truly are at peace with their sections from the get go, and some go a long time battling very heavy emotions. I'm one of them. All women are different. Some, like myself, battle feelings of failure, because my body didn't so what it was "supposed" to do. I battle feelings of anger at my doctors who didn't believe I could deliver a breech baby vaginally. I battle feelings of self loathing that I didn't fight harder for the birth I wanted, and somehow failed my son. To this day I still can't say that "I gave BIRTH to my son." It hurts, but I'm focused on healing emotionally. I'm not trying to be confrontational with my response, I just wanted to let you know a little of why some momma's feel disappointed. A healthy baby is the most important thing, but it isn't the only important thing. A momma's mental health is important too <3
Lizzy
2/12/2016 06:06:51 am
Thank you.
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 03:08:51 pm
❤️❤️❤️
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Cat
2/12/2016 08:35:11 am
Thankyou.. I needed this still for my first birth (class1 emergency c/s) & I've had two now.. :)
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 03:09:26 pm
❤️❤️
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Sherry
2/12/2016 01:57:32 pm
This. This is the most beautiful, loving, sweet, emotional, post ever. It made me cry happy tears. This was SO COMFORTING. I honestly can't thank you enough
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Susie (Baby Love Birth Doula)
2/12/2016 03:10:24 pm
This comment brings so much happiness to me. I am so glad my post had a positive impact on you... What was my entire hope when writing it.
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Kimberly
2/12/2016 04:33:44 pm
Thank you for writing this. My son is 9 weeks old and I still feel like I not only missed the birth experience I wanted, but missed the birth entirely. I was induced at 37 weeks due to pre-eclampsia and after 8 and a half hours of unmedicated hard labour without progressing I was told I needed a c-section to save mine and my child's life.
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Mel
2/12/2016 11:44:10 pm
I had to go under general anaesthetic at 35 weeks and two days as my placenta had erupted. I actually missed the birth of my own child because I was under anaesthetic. I woke up with no baby and no husband as they had sent him home. The first time I saw of her was a photo on my husband's phone as she was down in the NICU. I had only just told my midwife at an earlier appointment the previous day there was no way I was going to have a c- section! My baby girl is now a healthy, chubby, happy little bub and the most wonderful thing I've ever done. But the birth (or lack of) still haunts me from time to time. I just feel like I missed out and I'll never get that back. I was pregnant, then I wasn't and there is no memory of in between. I'd do it all again for my baby girl but I do hope I never have to.
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Ivy
2/13/2016 09:25:09 pm
Thank you. Your words mean a lot. I still struggle with emotional healing. I try very hard to remember the positives of my unplanned c-section. After 2 babies born at home, it was the last thing I was expecting. I feel my daughter and I were cheated. I love birth and I am very sad I will never experience it again.
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Jos O
2/14/2016 12:34:29 am
Thank you. It's so refreshing to read a Doula giving out respect and admiration for those of us who had to take a different road. Especially the road some of us really did not want to take. Lots of respect for you from this double c section mumma. Incidentally I would do my csections over and over again for my gorgeous beautiful boys.
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Jenna S
2/14/2016 05:36:26 am
Thankyou for these words, it was the hardest, scariest thing I had to face but it was an emergency that needed intervention. Those first couple of months were horrendous (infection after infection) but she's here, alive and safe xx
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Steph
2/14/2016 07:02:47 am
Thank you for writing his. It brought me tears and my heart ached as I am trying to come to terms of my unplanned c-section three weeks ago. Like so many, I had planned, learned and prepared as much as I could. Dreaming of a home birth for my first child. All the yoga classes and hypno birthing classes did help in the end to keep my mind and body calm during the stressful and quite traumatic days before he came. I never went into labour but have had to face so many fears in such a short period of time.. I'm glad we are all happy and healthy, still, my heart and body will have a long journey ahead to heal.. But letters like this help a lot!
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Thank you so much for this. My first two births were both unplanned (and extremely traumatic) c-sections. It took a long time to heal physically from them...and an even longer time to heal my heart. I had a vba2c this past September, and it was just...incredible!
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Ursula
2/14/2016 03:33:17 pm
Thanks a lot for this beautiful message to all mothers who had an unplanned c-section. I had one too last year and it was extremely traumatic even for my husband and especially unrespectful because the anesthetist took a video during the surgery because I could move my legs although I had already a strong dose of epidural anaesthesia and it should not have been possible for me to move these parts of my body.
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Mega
2/14/2016 03:55:50 pm
Thank you, thank you. I planned, prayed and prepared for a natural birth in a birth center with my first, and took great care to make sure I had a healthy pregnancy. Was shocked when I developed HELLP syndrome at 32 weeks, and had an emergency c-section at 33 weeks and had a beautiful 2 lb baby girl. The emotional healing was almost worse the than physical healing because I could not understand how this happened. I had none of the "typical" signs for HELLP, but got very sick very fast. The phrase "well at least you had a healthy baby" was hard to hear. Luckily we both healed, and I went on to have a successful all natural VBAC with my son two years later. I hope your words bring other new mamas comfort.
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Bérengère
2/14/2016 04:55:45 pm
Dear Susie,
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Liz
2/15/2016 12:00:23 am
Thank you for this post. Mine was a VERY unplanned c-section at 31 weeks. My daughter and I were both dying. I was so scared and very conflicted. We had just been to our 7 month appt that day and I left the appt in an ambulance to the children's hospital. There are so many thoughts that go through your mind at that point. The biggest being...is my baby going to be ok? Is she going to survive?
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Sayora
2/15/2016 01:45:06 am
9 months postpartum and I'm still feeling very emotional about my unplanned cs: I had a wonderful birthing team with a midwife and an amazing doula, but the baby withdrew and at 7cm he still was too high up. Due to my water breaking almost 20 hrs earlier they had to do cs...
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This is so beautiful. Thankyou for writing this.
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Anita
2/15/2016 06:09:37 am
Thank you for writing the words I couldn't find to explain the trauma of an emergency c section. I had my husband read this as he couldn't understand why I would be so upset when our experience ended in a healthy baby. After 5 days of spurious posterior labour, my baby never engaged and I only got to 2cm. My placenta abrupted and Bub's heart rate was dropping dangerously low. My memories of the first 24 hours after birth are a blur due to the drugs and a major post Partum haemorrhage..But what matters is 12 weeks later our beautiful son is a healthy thriving boy and physically I have recovered well. Thank you again.
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Demiilouise
2/15/2016 08:24:32 am
That was a beautiful read!
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Carol
2/15/2016 12:52:01 pm
Wow. You wrote this on my son's second birthday.
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Kathryn
2/16/2016 03:10:18 pm
I had a C section almost 16 years ago, my 1 and only child. I had been in labour for 6 hours and hadnt been dilating also his heart rate dropped to below 100 showing he was distressed. Even though I know I made the right decision for my on I still feel like I didn't properly give birth to my him and am envious of mothers who have successfully had vaginal births.
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Courtney
2/16/2016 10:38:18 pm
Words cannot describe how much this meant to me. I had gone through 5 hours of intense labor and transition with my second baby, when my water broke and he suddenly went breech. We were shocked, and I was heartbroken. At 9cm, I didn't have a choice but to have an emergency c-section. I needed this letter to remind myself of the beauty of all births, that my second child's birth was just as special and that I didn't fail. Due to the cut that had to be made, I can no longer have children vaginally, so I know I will save this and continue to read it as I heal from this birth and look forward to any future births I may be blessed to have. Thank you, thank you.
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Rene
2/18/2016 02:01:14 am
Loved this so much!
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Renata
2/19/2016 06:22:08 pm
Thank you. I'm crying
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Sheri.
2/19/2016 08:33:31 pm
Had to emergency c-sections because both of my kids where micro premies and couldn't handle a natural birth.
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Kylie wright
2/19/2016 09:30:04 pm
Thank you. This is simply beautiful and from my own experience validating. You are a kind soul and for those of us still "healing" this was powerful.
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Kate
2/19/2016 10:27:21 pm
Thank you so very much for these kind and gentle words. I was devastated about my unexpected cesarean until I talked to my OB at my 6-week follow up appointment, at which she very bluntly told me that 100 years ago, my child and likely myself would not be alive due to complete failure to descend despite 12 hours of labor and 4 hours of pushing. It gave me the perspective to know that I did what was best for my family and to begin healing. I'm expecting again and just this week, I found out that due to placenta placement and baby's large size, I am not a good candidate for VBAC. I am grieving yet again so your post could not be more timely! Thank you for the reminder that I must do what is best for my baby, and that as long as we are both healthy, we will be ok. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Eline
2/20/2016 03:31:38 am
Thank you so much for posting. I guess I needed this to let a few more tears out, giving me space for more graditude and even more love.
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Sian
2/20/2016 08:20:44 am
My daughter is to be my only kid! So, having a c-section and not getting push her out, and hold her, was very disappointing!
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Char
2/21/2016 05:05:10 am
I had my first son naturally and planned an even 'better' more natural, perfect birth for our next son. Things haven't gone to plan, and I'm scheduled for a c-section in 4 weeks. I needed this so much. Thank you <3
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candace
2/22/2016 11:26:24 am
Thank you so much for this I recently had my first child by unexpected c-section and cried while I read this because it was exactly how I felt and feel thank you!
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Ana Cristina
2/24/2016 04:49:06 am
It was so hard to take care of my baby when I myself can't take care of myself after my c section. I felt so much frustration. I could not easily raise myself up from the bed when my baby cried. I was in so much pain that I sometimes felt like fainting. For a month or so I struggled with household chores and preparing my baby's needs. My husband worked during night time and I was left alone with my baby. As a first time mother, I stayed up all night afraid that if I slept something bad will happen to my baby. I sleep for an hour or two at daytime. It was a dark time for me. Every thing is OK now. I have a healthy son. He is doted on by my family. He is very clingy so I carry him with me all the time. I get nothing done most days. Hahaha!
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Rayline
2/28/2016 10:12:30 pm
As I was getting an unltrasound done for my 34 week checkup my doctor said something didn't look right and to go to the nearest hospital to go get a stressed test done.
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3/20/2016 04:44:03 am
I appreciate everything you have added to my knowledge base.Admiring the time and effort you put into your blog and detailed information you offer.Thanks.
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Britany
4/15/2016 07:49:10 am
This was beautiful and true you always remember your birth story! I would like to tell everyone mine! June 2013 expecting my first child little boy i was high risk my entire pregnancy I went into labor I did my early labor at home all night the next morning was my obgyn appt we arrived my dr checks and I'm 2 1/2 cm dilated he tells us to go straight to the hospital we was going to have a baby today I was so excited and scared so many emotions I get checked in around 11 am we wait I have contractions none very strong nurses kept coming in and out hours go by my dr comes in and tells us that our bps keep dropping this was the 2nd time he said one more time he's going to have to go in after him he said it was like every time I had a contraction and it pushed him down he'd throw his arms up and push back. Another hour or so goes by and here comes my dr back he's telling us how he's going to have to perform an emergency c-section this was not what we had planned I knew nothing of c-sections but we had to get the baby out so here we went it was scary as I laid there my dr cutting me open, my husband standing by me holding my hand watching the Dr's every move he gets our son out they wrap him in a little blanket at 8:49 pm my husband shows him to me and I feel overjoyed at what a beautiful baby we had made he take him out to the nursery while the dr continues to get the placenta out which hurt so much I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest next thing I knew I was waking up in my room at 10:00 I wanted to see my precious little boy!! My 2nd pregnancy was healthy I had no problems nothing like my last one, but my dr said I scared him and took 2 years off his life with my last he was going to do a scheduled section this time at 39 weeks I said what ever u think is best! 39 weeks and a day comes around 2/17/16 me and my husband head to the hospital at 5 am surgery is suppose to start at 8am I get admitted and we wait when time comes we head to the c-section room I lay on the table get spinal tap (1st time) my husband comes in shortly after my dr is ready to start in 16 minutes I hear my little girl cry my husband gets to cut the cord something he didn't get to do with our son he says she's so little weighing in at 5lbs 9oz 19inches long she's beautiful with a head full of hair he takes her out and dr finishes up with me I was awake the whole time it was completely different than the last I felt nothing the spinal tap had a lot to do with it I think, my recovery with the 1st was hard I was sore and hurting for weeks up to 6 weeks sore 2nd section recovery less time and not as sore, the difference is wonderful we experienced two different sections both of my children are healthy! I recently had a tubular done my dr thought he was going in to tie my tubes but he went in and had to remove one and burn the other I had lots of scar tissue that he removed I have a wonderful dr who goes above and beyond I love him he looks out and takes care of me I'm blessed and I know I'm in great hands when it's his hands! Thank u for reading my story I'm a proud C-section mommy and my battle scar shows I gave birth to 2 healthy happy and beautiful children, I'd do anything for my kids!!
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Natasha
4/26/2016 06:03:17 pm
My first child was born by emcs 24 years ago. The only way to describe it is horrific. I didn't see my daughter or hold her until the next day as nobody gave her to me! She was in her crib out of my reach. My other 2 babies were planned cs. I spent years and years emotionally scarred by the experience of my first birth and this article has helped me come to terms with it. I always knew how hard a cs was but never saw it the way you described it. I always felt less of a woman for not having a vaginal delivery. Without my cs my daughter would not be here today. Without my other 2 cs my other daughters would not be here today. I love them with all my heart xxx
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6/14/2016 06:44:51 am
I want you to thank for your time of this wonderful read!!! I definately enjoy every little bit of it and I have you bookmarked to check out new stuff of your blog a must read blog!
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Caragh
6/21/2016 03:50:48 pm
Thank you for posting this. I had to have an emergency c section after 2 days of induced labour, for the most part unmedicated. During the experience I just focused on what was in front of me and was prepared to do anything to get my beautiful baby out safely. I never made a birthing plan simply because I wanted to keep an open mind and must on some level, known things wouldn't go smoothly.
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Char
7/11/2016 06:20:06 pm
As a Dutch woman and a mother of a 3 year old son, I am still struggling with the feeling of failure. My pregnancy was a surprise, cause doctors gave up on me. My son was healthy and I enjoyed every day while carrying him in my womb. When i went in to labor and went to hospital it was all okay until I could not push him out. After 2 hours of agony and pressure the second gynocologist cocluded my hips were to small. My son was not able to be born natural and I was rushed into the ok to get my epidurial while my contractions peeked and I still wanted to push as hard as i could. When the surgeons delivered my son, I could not touch him and went into a surgery shock. It took a while before I could see him and get to know him. He is a healthy young boy and I am happy, but I am still angry with society and it's perception of my 'easy' way of giving birth. In holland a pregnant woman is never prepared for this scenario. You can't choose for c_section. Giving birth is considered to be done natural...at home. Wish I had a doula that talk with the same respect about c_section and all possible ways of giving birth. And neither way is better then the other. I hope your message is spread. Thank you so much.
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Natashia
7/20/2016 08:39:52 am
This was so nice to read. I am about to give birth to my second and I still feel like the birth of my first was stolen from me with my unplanned c-section. His heart rate dipped so low before I ever had a chance to try a natural birth that I always wanted. I know with out this emergency surgery my son would not be with us today, and I am so thankful. For round two I am going to try for a VBAC if I go into labor before my due date, but have a scheduled c-section on my due date. Choosing which route to go was extremely difficult for me, so I'm am letting baby decide. Besides, I learned the first time nothing ever goes according to plan! Thank you for this beautiful letter, it has really made me feel better about the possible second C.
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Amy
8/25/2016 07:30:19 am
Susie, thank you so much for writing this!!! After 6 c-sections, I feel weird even saying that I "gave birth". I hate c-sections. I would never, ever have chosen that path. But it was chosen for me when the doctor couldn't find my baby's heartbeat and did an emergency section. It was chosen for me time and time again after that. I wish I had known better. I wish someone had told me. I wish I could get pregnant without worrying that it could end horribly. I wish I could enjoy waiting for my baby to come on its own rather than feeling the anxiety of not knowing if I will walk away from yet another surgery. I wish I had never almost died after the 3rd one. I wish my births were more beautiful and could involve more than one support person. I wish I could have as many children as I want, rather than having to resign myself to the fact that this 7th baby may be my last. BUT, I am grateful for the births I was allowed to have. I am grateful for these beautiful babies, no matter how they got here. And I am grateful for women like you who put my thoughts into words <3
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Nicolle
11/17/2017 02:36:01 am
It took me so long to get over my c section actually not get over because I don't see that happening but to stop crying every 5 mins or waking up at 3 in the morning to cry. My section. Was unplanned after a vaginal with my first. I got to 10cm and baby went into distress. The pain I felt after my section omgosh it was sooo bad. I morn so much for the vaginally birth I didn't get Although I know now this isn't the case when I had that section I felt so much less of a women I felt weak. Thank you so much for this truly I'm still crying from it, it means a lot x
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MC
6/21/2018 12:45:45 pm
Thanks so much. I’ve had 2 c sections, second one was a vbac attempt. I really wanted to avoid surgery again but my babies aren’t able to fit through my pelvis. I’ve had such a hard time coping with the stigma and feeling very alone. A lot of other moms don’t understand the hurt or see why it’s so hard. Some c section moms prefer the surgery and that’s fine but it was never something I wanted to do, it’s scary and painful and in a way it was heartbreaking because with my last one I didn’t meet her in a normal happy way because I was so medicated. To make it worse people think I am not grateful because of this but that’s so far from the truth. I appreciate that someone sees how hard it is and the sacrifice. C sections are by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life (other than raising children). Thanks so much for writing this
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Tammy
2/20/2022 03:24:59 am
What a beautiful message from the soul and heart. You gave me not only a perspective, but a level of validation from my two unplanned C’s 30 years ago. Such wisdom, 💕💕 to you.
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